The life of long-term travel is one filled with beauty, adventure, and spontaneity…but it’s not always rainbows and sunshine.
This is now the 3rd time I’ve prepared to leave home for an indefinite amount of time. Sometimes the trips last longer than expected and some are cut short, but no matter what there’s always the tearful goodbyes. It’s especially hard if you’re close to your friends & family, and even harder if you always leave after the holidays when you’ve been by their side for months.
You know when you make the decision to travel that this is ultimately the hardest thing to leave behind. The special events, birthdays, weddings, and everyday life is still occurring while you’re away, and even though you know you’re off to live an amazing adventure, the pain is always there. For me it’s guilt. I feel guilty for missing those special moments, for not being close enough to drive to a friend in need, and for causing pain in the hearts of those I love the most.
I see it in their eyes when they’re telling me how happy they are that I’m traveling, all the while knowing that they don’t want me to walk out the door. I see it in my friendships that are slowly fading away, and I feel it in my heart when I sob after leaving them for the last time.
I’ve also had two deaths in my family during my time away, which is the absolute worst. Knowing the rest of my family is in pain and being so far away and there’s nothing I can do to make it any better. Not being there to hug and comfort them and mourn together…is a pain I wish upon no one.
Being away is hard and being across the world is even harder, but when you arrive at home and hug the ones you love the most it truly makes it all worth it. You have the opportunity to give them your undivided attention and share stories over what’s happened while you were away. When you get to snuggle the new baby boy in the family or share that glass of wine you desperately needed with your girlfriends…it’s worth it.
I know this isn’t the most lighthearted post, but I’m here to give you the truth. The good, the bad, and the great..because it truly is a great life. Making those sacrifices and being away truly helps you appreciate the importance of life, so keep striving for your dream. We’re all rooting for you!
Against The Grain Travel 